Hey everyone!
I see that Ashley has posted something to this lounge about Actors and anxiety. Rather than answer in her thread, I have to air some dirty laundry about my lack of it, so I'll answer it and look for guidance from those more experienced in the field.
But first, a little history. I've only been doing this for five years. I started when I was 47 years old. I had served 21 years in the Marine Corps and then did 9 years as a small business owner before selling it and working a third career as an Actor, Writer, Director, Producer. Suffice to say, I don't get rattled anymore... by anyone or anything. I think that this helps when I audition, as I am not like "Oh I NEED this to pay rent" because I'm not showing any signs of anxiety or pressure. I can just do my best with the part (Except for the Cobra Kai audition but that was because I was fanboying all over the place but that's for another post! Lol!). But sometimes a little anxiety can be a good thing and in one particular case, I wish I had more of it. See below.
Now, for some dirty laundry. There is a VERY well known casting director here in the northeast who has cast me before in a few things. I've also taken classes from this individual and had just completed the latest class about a week before what I'm about to tell you occurred.
I made it to the callback round for a commercial and the callback was on Zoom. Unfortunately for me, I barely made it to my computer in time because of traffic coming home (I am the world's oldest film student too, more history for you) and being a fat guy, I was out of breath having just run to make it.
Well, of course, this person didn't like my set up for the callback and asked me to move locations, which I did but what was supposed to be a five minute callback was now three minutes in.
I could tell that they were angry with me from the get go. I was still out of breath trying to control it and admittedly it wasn't my best performance.
They began pounding on the table and yelling at me, no doubt because I had just completed their class and I was screwing up royally. "This is a very well paying gig Brandon! What happens if you don't get this?! What will you do!?" Now, remember, I was a Marine and in many ways, I still am. When I feel attacked, I attack back without thinking sometimes. I replied: "You mean go back to being retired, waking up at noon and @#$%$ the wife twice a day? No! Please! Not that!"
Needless to say, this sent this person into an absolute tizzy and I ended up, obviously, not getting the part.
Now, my question to you hive mind! Is there ANYTHING I can do to repair this relationship? This person IS very well known in casting circles and it's not someone I want against me. I think that if I had a little bit of healthy anxiety, things may have gone differently. I would have left class earlier, I would have maybe gone to the secondary location to start things. I wouldn't have had to run.
Let me know what you think!
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Thank You so much, Nicola, for sharing with me that story. I am so thankful to meet you here, cause I feel super close to You, cause my story is really similar somehow. I love You from the moment I fe...
Expand commentThank You so much, Nicola, for sharing with me that story. I am so thankful to meet you here, cause I feel super close to You, cause my story is really similar somehow. I love You from the moment I felt I want hear that story. I really appreciate a meeting with You. How can I work with You? how can I be around You as well? so close to germany when I think about your approach to life ( I live currently in wroclaw In Poland, so here is few hours and my first concert, solo concert which I made was in berlin as well :)). hope to see you soon
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Julia – your message truly touched me....
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Julia – your message truly touched me....
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