Hello, fellow players!
Actors, a new year is almost upon us, and our years, well, they don't seem to feel or move like other people's.
Audition...maybe a callback?...the void...then, out of nowhere, the Big Gig.
I've learned so much this year, having worked, "not a lot", in maybe the quantifying mind most people have. But I acted in an indie film shot in New Mexico, "Babybacks", and I walked the red carpet premiere of two films I acted in, shot in 2022 and 2023, "Delta County", and "Do No Harm", respectfully.
And...is that it?
Lol, that's what I was thinking before I learned, and am living life, like I am now. Following the clues the acting path is leaving me. Every audition, is a clue. What was it for, what type of character, did you like it, what did it feel like?
Then...the amazing high, you got a callback! Woohoo!!!! Did you do the same thing, were you nervous, did you feel like you had to impress someone, did you make it "perfect"?
And...if you don't hear back, which is most of the time what happens...the void...did you beat yourself up? Did you call yourself nasty names in your head? Did you compare yourself to other people out there, "making it"?
You're not alone. Been there, done that. Rinse, wash, repeat.
But, this year I allowed myself to...just flow, for a teeny tiny bit. I let go of the things I cannot control, and, I listened to my heart speaking to me, in between the auditions I didn't enjoy, and the callbacks I thought I should be getting.
"This role isn't the role you dream of...wait for it...it's coming..."
I allowed myself to dream again. I imagine the roles I do want to play, the females I want to bring to the world, the humans I want to being voice to, the women I want the world to see, and feel. Moms, immigrants, leaders, revolutionaries, femme fatales, spies, the women I feel I already am, somehow.
Suddenly, as I allow myself to be in joy, and happiness, and relax, there it comes...the Big Gig...and all we had to do, was just...believe, feel, and be.
So, as we close out 2026, what did your auditions feel like? How did the void affect you? How would it be, if instead of the fear of not being enough, you wrote down all the amazing things that make you perfect, for the roles you truly want to play? Have you ever written a list of the stories and roles you would love to be a part of?
Happy Holidays to All, and remember...Players...Play: )
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I was sitting on my couch, contemplating a second retirement. For 30 years I had lived a life of serving others. The first career was in the Marine Corps, retiring after 21 years. The second, I owned...
Expand commentI was sitting on my couch, contemplating a second retirement. For 30 years I had lived a life of serving others. The first career was in the Marine Corps, retiring after 21 years. The second, I owned a small business.
I wanted to do something that was completely selfish for a while. I had earned a scholarship to college for Acting and didn't take it so I could join the Corps. I was also doing my own commercials for the business. I thought "Actors are some pretty selfish bastards! I'll bet I can do that!" Lol!
Three months after getting headshots, I was doing a Scotts Lawncare commercial. And three months after that, I was Executive Producing and acting in, my first feature film "Turbo Cola" (currently available wherever you go to watch movies) which would go on to win Film Threat's Indie Movie of the Year for 2023.
Needless to say, the bug has bit. But the bite is not as deep for me as it might be for others. It's not something that I HAVE to do, as I've gotten into writing and directing as well, but it is fun to do and I intend to keep doing it. So, short answer, I do it just because it's fun and over the years I've made a little tribe here in Central PA that I like making things with!
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I remember being really into The Little Mermaid when I was a kid and loved singing along to Ariel's songs. I didn't take an acting/drama class until high school. My favorite part was when everyone in...
Expand commentI remember being really into The Little Mermaid when I was a kid and loved singing along to Ariel's songs. I didn't take an acting/drama class until high school. My favorite part was when everyone in the class got to write their own monologues and perform them. I've been writing far longer than I've been into drama or acting. I've written short stories since I was around eight or nine years old, written lyrics since I was ten or eleven years old. I've always felt pulled towards music especially singing. I'd come home from school as a kid and loved to spend at least half an hour singing along to Alannah Myles or Alanis Morrissette. Decades later, my love for singing is still strong. I guess I love singing because music speaks to my soul and makes me feel alive.
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Brandon Keeton Thank you for sharing, and that's quite the trajectory. It found you, the BUG, absolutely, and fun!
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Haley Mary That's so lovely, singing and music are a great part of acting, and film, all stories. Music is the heartbeat without words. And I totally relate, coming home from school, singing, writing,...
Expand commentHaley Mary That's so lovely, singing and music are a great part of acting, and film, all stories. Music is the heartbeat without words. And I totally relate, coming home from school, singing, writing, and somehow we just keep going. And The Little Mermaid!!!! Singing, dreaming, being herself. Thanks for sharing Haley, I love that.