Addiction created, for me, a single-minded, all-encompassing drive to get drugs, and finding ways and means to get more. It is a rapidly growing mindset, compulsion, and conditioning. I felt I had to do it under any circumstances, as it was who I was, and was inescapable. These self imposed conditioning's never truly leave you, and self sabotaging triggers remain for the rest of your life. Once an addict, always an addict